The Haunting - Annie McFarland
I had a whole different blog post brewing in my mind for today, it was going to be witty and fun and playful and about The Hammer. . . .and then I went to bed last night.
Y’all. . .I was haunted by a ghost last night! I promise you, I am not making this up. It wasn’t so much the white shape, floating and saying booooooo. . . it was a vivid dream variety of haunting. It was one of those dreams that felt like I was actually there and I remember every detail, I remember all the feelings.This dream has been floating around my mind all day and I keep going back to, what could it mean? So. . .I have to ask your opinion. . .do you think the ghosts or spirits or souls of our lost loved ones come to us in dreams? Do you think they are with us as we go about our days? OR is it simply our expression of missing that person so you bring them back to you in your dreams? I know that I have told my kids that their dad is always with them. I’m not sure if that is just one of those things that I am supposed to say to provide them comfort or if I actually believe it. But, if I really take a moment to think about it, it feels kinda creepy. Who wants their dad watching over your shower or sneaking a beer from the fridge? For the 12 years that Cody has been gone, I have had conversations with him about our children. On our son’s graduation day, I looked up at the sky and quietly said, ‘you are missing all of this and you should be here’. On the days when my beautiful daughter is riding my last nerve, I look up and not so quietly shout, ‘why did you leave me here alone to deal with this’?!?!?! I think I do this as a comfort to myself in the moments that overwhelm me and I want to feel like I am not alone in raising the two children that we decided to have. But do I actually believe I am communicating with him? I don’t think I do. Here’s where I get stuck and this may seem like I am wandering off on to a completely different topic but just stay with me for a moment. Personally, I am not a believer in psychics. I don’t think there is anything wrong with it if you do but here’s my hangup. How do I know if what I am being told about my future is actually what my future holds or do I then create the future I was told by the psychic? For example, I have a girlfriend who is a huge believer in psychics. She goes to the same girl regularly for advice on her life. The psychic told her that she was going to marry a man whos name started with an H and he was going to be in the medical field. After my gf heard that, she refused to speak to anyone that did not match that criteria. She waited for years, believing that she was to marry Harry, the medical guy! Finally, she gave up and married a contractor named John. Clearly, her future was not as the psychic told but she spent years of her life trying to make it happen. So how do I know that what I’m being told is really my future and not what I will create after hearing it. Now, I promised I would roll back around to my haunting and here it is. How do I know if the haunting was actually Cody visiting me last night or was it just a dream? I feel like we can rewrite anything if we just believe it enough, hell I’m 40-something years old and I still believe in Santa! I wonder if I had a moment before bed where he came to my mind and I created a visit for some unnerving reason. I wish I wasn’t so jaded and that I actually believed that he popped in for a quick visit but at the end of the day, I think it was just a dream. What do you think?
- Annie
Y’all. . .I was haunted by a ghost last night! I promise you, I am not making this up. It wasn’t so much the white shape, floating and saying booooooo. . . it was a vivid dream variety of haunting. It was one of those dreams that felt like I was actually there and I remember every detail, I remember all the feelings.This dream has been floating around my mind all day and I keep going back to, what could it mean? So. . .I have to ask your opinion. . .do you think the ghosts or spirits or souls of our lost loved ones come to us in dreams? Do you think they are with us as we go about our days? OR is it simply our expression of missing that person so you bring them back to you in your dreams? I know that I have told my kids that their dad is always with them. I’m not sure if that is just one of those things that I am supposed to say to provide them comfort or if I actually believe it. But, if I really take a moment to think about it, it feels kinda creepy. Who wants their dad watching over your shower or sneaking a beer from the fridge? For the 12 years that Cody has been gone, I have had conversations with him about our children. On our son’s graduation day, I looked up at the sky and quietly said, ‘you are missing all of this and you should be here’. On the days when my beautiful daughter is riding my last nerve, I look up and not so quietly shout, ‘why did you leave me here alone to deal with this’?!?!?! I think I do this as a comfort to myself in the moments that overwhelm me and I want to feel like I am not alone in raising the two children that we decided to have. But do I actually believe I am communicating with him? I don’t think I do. Here’s where I get stuck and this may seem like I am wandering off on to a completely different topic but just stay with me for a moment. Personally, I am not a believer in psychics. I don’t think there is anything wrong with it if you do but here’s my hangup. How do I know if what I am being told about my future is actually what my future holds or do I then create the future I was told by the psychic? For example, I have a girlfriend who is a huge believer in psychics. She goes to the same girl regularly for advice on her life. The psychic told her that she was going to marry a man whos name started with an H and he was going to be in the medical field. After my gf heard that, she refused to speak to anyone that did not match that criteria. She waited for years, believing that she was to marry Harry, the medical guy! Finally, she gave up and married a contractor named John. Clearly, her future was not as the psychic told but she spent years of her life trying to make it happen. So how do I know that what I’m being told is really my future and not what I will create after hearing it. Now, I promised I would roll back around to my haunting and here it is. How do I know if the haunting was actually Cody visiting me last night or was it just a dream? I feel like we can rewrite anything if we just believe it enough, hell I’m 40-something years old and I still believe in Santa! I wonder if I had a moment before bed where he came to my mind and I created a visit for some unnerving reason. I wish I wasn’t so jaded and that I actually believed that he popped in for a quick visit but at the end of the day, I think it was just a dream. What do you think?
- Annie
I’m a hospice nurse, lost my mom at age 16. She always makes me laugh on my tough days. I believe they are always with us, guiding us. My poor mom is probably drunk all the time dealing with me. Lol
I lost my baby sister 2 years ago. she was murdered by my father’s in home health care worker and he injured my Dad as well. I helped raise my sister. There are times I still hear her answering a question that I haven’t asked out loud, or see her in the stars…I heard a song recently. Dancing in the Sky, I think she’s there just beyond my view , probably calling me crazy!!
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